Out Here Lookin'

I'm finally headed home, I think I figured out what I left to figure out
And as long as I've been gone, There wasn't a reason left to doubt
That It'd be cold and empty like the winter I tried to leave behind
I got there and sure enough, I was right, just not in my mind

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I've been out here looking, for something that feels like home
But all I found out here on my own, is nothing but the road
I guess I had to go so far alone, to see my life this clear
I learned there's nothing on that road, I don't have right here

I was gone so long I was a stranger coming home to the rain
It seemed the same, but somehow I knew something had changed
I hoped it was me but my mind couldn't sell it to sell it to my heart
After all this time I'm still scared to death, just whistling in the dark

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I knew I'd gone a little crazy when that gun went off in the house
But it was loud enough to wake me up, to what I'm all about
When you left me all alone I told everyone that you were crazy
But I realized last night with a shot that it wasn't you, it was me

I've been out here looking, for something that feels like home
But all I found out here on my own, is nothing but the road
I guess I had to go so far alone, to see my life this clear
I learned there's nothing on that road, I don't have right here
I left it all behind when I thought I could find better for myself
The better things in life I thought I'd find, I just found out I left